Trust

I have a problem, and the first step in solving a problem is admitting you have one right?

Ok well then I am here to admit, I have a problem with trust. I guess if you can really call it a problem. I trust my guy with all my heart, and every time he is going to hang out with someone he calls me to see if I have an issue with it. Which I don't. I don't want to be the one to come between him and his friends. I mean they were there before me and have known him longer than I have.

Maybe it is just the hormones from pregnancy talking, but I have felt this way before I got pregnant. Is it the distance? Is it my own personal insecurities? And what is the deal with me being extremely ok when he goes and hangs with a guy friend, but damn near freak myself out when he wants to hang with a female friend? I have guy friends and I have girl friends and he should be able to as well. Is this just one of those Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus moments? Something that is a catch-22 when it comes to the opposite sexes?

I just feel like a horrible girlfriend because I have so many trust issues and doubts when he has never once given me a reason to feel this way. Is it because of my past? Or an I just that insecure and unsure of myself?


I personally think that it is all in my head. After all he does call me every day, multiple times a day. He even called me after he scared the living hell out of himself thinking he lost the ring I had bought him. I mean if I wasn't supposed to trust him would he even give a damn to do all the things that he does.. Probably not.

I am really hoping that one of these days I will be able to not doubt myself as much as I do, which is A LOT!