Saturday, May 25, 2013

Black Sheep Status: Confirmed!

So I have officially been labled the black sheep of my family since the decisions that I have made over the last year and a half are not to the taste of my family. Now that my daughter is born all of the true colors from family memebers are coming to the surface.

Since I had a child with another man I have cast a bad name on the family.....Ok let me get this straight and clarify...we are talking about the same family which all of my aunts and uncles have been at least once divorced, where my biological father has been twice divorced, where my mother has been divorced and re-married, where my brother's "wife" is still married to her first husband and her and my brother have a daughter together.....

ISN'T THAT THE SAME DAMN THING...I am still for all intents and purposes "married" yet I had a child with another man....Kettle, kettle yes hello kettle....this is pot....you be black bitch!

Things with my husband have been over for a while, we just have not made the move to make it official. Hell my husband is the one that is telling everyone that he thinks it was a mistake in the first  place to get married. I love knowing the fact that 7 years of my life have been a complete waste. Thanks douchenugget!

Yet all eyes are focused on me, why have I not gotten a job? why am I staying with my mother and not my husband? why am I not in Florida yet? what is taking so long with the divorce? why are you doing this, why are you doing that? Why don't you have any money?

Please excuse me while I get the podium set up for the freaking press conference. I will answer all your questions accordingly. *Steps to podium, proceeds to turn around, drops trou and moons all you piss ants!*Stick that in your tail pipe and smoke it.

Now that I have done that little moon dance allow me to set somethings straight:
1) No job- I had an emergency c-section and due to that and some other health issues I am not allowed to work for 6 to 8 weeks....hummm let me see we are just starting on week 3.
2)No place to call home- I am staying with my mom for a safe place for me and my daughter. Since I am seperated from my husband having my child in a bassinet in the living room while I couch surf because we don't share a marital bed anymore just seems like oh so much fun....umm I think not.
3) Florida bound? Yes, eventually. Right now there are some things that need to be set into place before any of that can happen. As much as I wish it had happened MONTHS ago.
4) I now pronounce you free from each other- Since I have no money because the IRS is taking their sweet ass time getting me my return I have no money to file for said divorce and I have something more important like bills to pay for. I can take care of the divorce no matter where I am so for now that sits on the back burner mmmmmK?
5)A moth in my wallet?- See said comment about the IRS taking its sweet ass time, accompanied by my lack of being able to work, and Ron losing his job and just now finding another.

Any other commentary or have I pretty much summed it all up for you.

Now I should clarify that the only people in my family that have stuck by me through this is my mom, and my sister. Everyone else is out for blood.

It is my life and I don't know what kind of difference it makes the choices I make in it. Why should they get a say in what I say or do? I didn't get to help you with your kitchen remodel, I didn't get to give my opinion if he should have gotten the end tables in your divorce, I really wouldn't have chosen that house it is too close to the bypass.... oh but wait you didn't ask/or want my opinion in your life choices so what the hell makes you think I want you to butt into mine.

Hell I am almost 32 years old. I have been away from home since I was 18 years old. I have been in the working world since I was 15. I have lived in Florida and Nebraska by myself. LAST I checked I was not 15 and pregnant therefore I don't need your opinion. This is also a different day and age than most of them are used to and I get that, but changing times means changing your view on some things.

I understand it would be different if I was with someone who abuses me and/or I had a major drug or alcohol addiction then by all means intervene and try and get me the help, express your opinion, tell me that I need to get to rehab or dump the douche, however, since NONE of that happens to be the case why should what I have done, will do, or am doing matter one freaking bit to you. If you are not directly involved then you shouldn't be getting in my face.

Rant over!


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